2020-10-23 23:40:11
Compared to others i haven't had many hardships....not really
Shits happened...stuff has happened..sure but stuff always happened...right?
But the real hardships...is me
It's always me.
As long as i can remember i have never not been afraid....Afraid of failure...afraid of letting people down... hurting people.... getting hurt.
Before i thought if i kept my guard up
and focus on other things ,other people...
If i couldn't feel it ,then no harm would come to me......i screwed up.
Not only did i shut out the pain ,i shut out everything...good and bad until there was nothing ,
It is fine to just live in the now but the best part about now is there is another one tomorrow and i am gonna stan making them count.
#hope
#the_spectacular_now
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